Monday, March 7, 2011

Concerns & Excitement

This afternoon, I visited with someone from our agency who told me to expect our LOA (Letter of Approval) from China in the next week or two.  From that date, we can expect to travel 11 to 15 weeks later.  That puts us heading to China some time in June!  This is a very solid prediction at this point.  In just 4 months, Ken and I will be able to hold these boys in our very own arms!  I can't imagine it!

It only takes a few seconds of giddy excitement before anxiety creeps in.  The house hasn't sold.  It has to sell by the end of this month if we're going to have the cash we need to pay for the adoption.  (We are applying for an exciting adoption fundraiser/grant. I'll keep you posted!)

I have no idea what God is doing with the timing of our sell.  I'm daily fighting worry, frustration and a sense of entitlement.  God, isn't adopting Your brainchild?  You said yourself that caring for orphans is "pure undefiled religion."  We're trying to do this here.  Can't You help us out with selling the house?

While asking these questions, these excerpts from the account of Job quickly play in my head.  After a long, 37-chapter rant...er...discussion among Job and his buddies, The LORD speaks:

 Then the LORD spoke to Job out of the storm. He said:
 “Who is this that obscures my plans
   with words without knowledge?
Brace yourself like a man;
   I will question you,
   and you shall answer me.

  “Where were you when I laid the earth’s foundation?
   Tell me, if you understand.
 Who marked off its dimensions? Surely you know!
   Who stretched a measuring line across it?
 On what were its footings set,
   or who laid its cornerstone—
 while the morning stars sang together
   and all the angels shouted for joy?


 “Have you ever given orders to the morning,
   or shown the dawn its place,
that it might take the earth by the edges
   and shake the wicked out of it? 



 "Surely you know, for you were already born!
   You have lived so many years!



  "Will the one who contends with the Almighty correct him?
   Let him who accuses God answer him!

  Then Job answered the LORD:
  “I am unworthy—how can I reply to you?
   I put my hand over my mouth.
 I spoke once, but I have no answer—
   twice, but I will say no more.”

2 comments:

  1. Sarah, I have read the same portion of scripture more than once during these past several months. It has been both a reminder and a reassurance. Know that I have you, Ken, and your five children on my heart and in my prayers daily. God does provide and will be glorified through it all.
    I love you dearly.

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  2. Sarah,

    I have not talked to anyone from our agency lately. The last I heard was to expect LOA in 2 months from LID. SO glad to hear it should be 1-2 weeks from now! It was encouraging to see families with January LID's get there LOA's today.
    The Lord will provide in His time. Email me directly at my email if you would like info about the adoption grant we received...
    Blessings,
    Tammmy

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