Ken recently mentioned that we should have moved to a place like this when we first came to Texas 4 years ago, but we have no regrets.
First of all, if we had moved here to begin with, we wouldn't have some of our dearest friends from Dickinson Drive and may not have gone to Valley Creek Church and met so many people we love there.
The dark side of "no regrets" is the fact that I know we wouldn't have been satisfied living here 4 years ago. Ken and I have been notorious for thinking "things will be better when _____ happens." When we left Las Vegas, we were thrilled to have done so well in the real estate market and were taken in by how big of a house we could get for "cheap" in Texas. We were enamored with the idea of a BIG house with a BIG yard and BIG pool as if that would bring us joy. I hate to admit it, but if we had moved here first, we would have been discontent, pining away until we could have our "dream home." Now, having lived in what we thought was our dream home, we know what we should have known all along since we know Christ!
Being here two weeks has revealed in me my own ego and attitude. I find myself wanting to explain to others that we did live in a house...a big house...and that this is our first time in an apartment. Or I'll want to make sure people know that where we live isn't like a regular apartment. That need to explain exposes ugly parts of my character. Pride. Judgement. Protecting my "image". Yuck. I thank God for His willingness to chisel away on my heart and make my character a little more like His. My prayer is that He will continue to reveal and remove the ugliness in my heart, even if it's painful.
Philippians 3 - The Message
Yes, all the things I once thought were so important are gone from my life. Compared to the high privilege of knowing Christ Jesus as my Master, firsthand, everything I once thought I had going for me is insignificant—dog dung. I've dumped it all in the trash so that I could embrace Christ and be embraced by him. I didn't want some petty, inferior brand of righteousness that comes from keeping a list of rules when I could get the robust kind that comes from trusting Christ—God's righteousness.